With the winter we have had it has left many of us longing for spring. Thoughts about planting flowers and playing outdoors in the grass are keeping many of my friends hopeful under foot after foot of snow and ice. This has led to many people planning for warmer weather.
Who wants to go to Cedar Point in May?
Who wants to do a show in the spring?
Who wants to go camping this summer?
These are the moments when keeping this secret is hardest. I don't want to plan for warmer weather because I want to be busy. Busy with flying to Uganda, busy with bringing Simon home, busy with post traumatic stress disorder and doctors visits. Who looks forward to PTSD? This mom. I can't wait to love him through it and prove over and over that God's love is never failing, never ceasing, always and forever.
We still make plans though, because if this doesn't go our way we don't want to be stuck home broken heartted. We owe it to everyone that loves us to pick up and carry on :)
But please forgive me if we've made plans together because deep down I want more than anything to have to cancel on you. ;)
If you had truly ever experienced a child who has been diagnosed with PTSD you would never wish it upon anyone. I have worked with many children with severe PTSD who struggle to remain alive each day. If you truly understood the magnitude of suffering a child goes through with PTSD you would pray nonstop for no child to ever have to experience it. Visit a children's hospital psych ward.
ReplyDeleteSusie. Thank you for your comment. Please know my heart. I do not wish this on our child but I fully understand that this is already his reality and I look forward to loving him and working hard every day to make his world a little safer and to love him beyond measure. I realize that this will be a lifelong thing and that it will be harder than any of us have ever faced. Yet it confirms in my heart that God has led us to adoption because against all reason I am genuinely looking forward to taking this path and I know that joy can only come from God.
ReplyDelete