Last night I received incredible news from a dear friend. Although our journeys are different, she and I have stood by one another during seasons of heartbreak and disappointment. Waiting is never easy no matter what you are waiting on. It is especially hard when you feel like what you are waiting for is a God given desire. This friend understood that more than anyone else. There were many times when I picked up my phone to reach out to her because she was someone safe for me. I could text her and honestly say whatever irrational and ridiculous thought was overwhelming my heart at the moment and she wouldn't correct me or try to fix me. She would just empathize with my pain and understand that I already knew the things that would carry me through, I just needed to cry for a bit.
As I fell asleep I was overjoyed knowing that God was beginning to answer her prayer. I tried to think back to all the times we had comforted one another. The hours of prayers and conversations. I tried to think back and remember the days when I could barely get off the couch because of my sorrow...and you know what? I couldn't. I know these days occurred because I lived them, but I can no longer dwell in the pain of the past. Somehow, without me even realizing it, God has begun to heal the wounds of waiting. Each day as I watch Isaac laugh and kiss his sweet face I feel the strain of all it took to get here less and less.
Walking in obedience to Gods call is rarely easy, in fact it is often hard, but it is ALWAYS worth it. I only hope I can remember that truth as we continue forward.
Needed to read this today. Thank you for sharing your heart.
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